You ever realize when your an outcast that you are judged so much harder in your family more then any one else? You get judged, ridiculed and isolated from them all. The small jabs here and there about things you can’t control, about mistakes you can’t change. After a while you begin to think of yourself as being a horrible person, even though you have learned from your mistakes and have moved on. They don’t see it though, all they see is the screwed up you. Nothing you do will change their view of you, so you realize you have two options: 1) conform to who they want you to be, and be miserable orrr 2) you say screw it and just be yourself and ignore your family. It’s really all up to you on how you view yourself and not how your family views you.